Independance

I feel like im soo far behind.. in everything.  School, relationships, experiences, partying, life, just everything. But one thing that I feel I am the most behind in, is independance.

At my age now, most of my friends are moved out, driving, in college or university etc. And I havent even had a serious boyfriend yet! Im worried that next september when I do move out and start my own life, that im not going to be ready.  I still ask my mom for permission before I go anywhere & I can't even drive on my own yet. Im scared that when I go to college, all the independance is going to jump at me all at once, and im not going to be able to handle it.

Blah, missing a chunk of my teenage years, is a lot harder than i thought. I thought I would just pick up and go back to normal, but its not nearly that easy.

Depression

Depression is a very real thing.  Going through it when you feel like no one can relate to you, & you feel alone is awful. Lately I have been in a huge slump and can't seem to get myself out of it.  I'm stuck between really wanting friends right now, to just wanting everyone to leave me alone.  I am confused and over whelmed, and just not really sure what to do with myself at the moment.  It's really tough. My mental state at the point is a lot worse than my health, and in a lot of ways, I find that to be harder.